The unnamed feeling...

3X says ""There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass"
(Charles Kuralt).

mel·an·chol·y
NOUN:
1. Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom:
2. Pensive reflection or contemplation.

The word suits my feelings. Particularly when I start thinking that's been in my mind for the past few months. Some things are difficult to talk about, and expressing it in the blog is even harder, because you may write whatever you want, but you're not sure how your readers will think about it, or about you.

Anyway, the thing that has been on my mind is something which concerns the lives of certain individuals. What they have been through in their short span of live so far, is more thorns than roses. And what they have been through I shall not revel, as it will not be appreciative to your ears, but all I can tell is that most will not experience what they have gone through.

We take our lives for granted, and we even take the lives of our love ones for granted. We expect to see them the next day and the day after , next year and the year after. We made plans together for the future. We daydream about how the future will be like, together.

For some, the dream never came, and the future is completely different from the norm. They have to make do with whoever that can share some of their love... and for them... not many unfortunately.

back to why I'm feeling melancholic...

Start of next year, their live will begin in another place. I'm sad and I've cried silently. Though many have said its for their own good, I remain defiant. What good comes from separation is beyond me. But that's just me. I can give all that I can give, but ultimately its not my decision.

I dread when the day comes. Everyday the vision of that first day for them haunts me and my brain goes into denial mode as I am not in favour of it. Say whatever you like, I cannot accept it. I've grown attached to them and vice versa. If it were up to me.....

but alas ... its not my decision.

I pray to God Almighty, please keep them together.... Amin